Hello, my name is Victoria, and this is my story. From the outside looking in my family appeared to have it all together. However, my home life was anything but normal, my dad was a workaholic, so my mom was my primarily caregiver. When my dad was home, he was an evil person. He was emotionally and verbally abusive towards my mom and engaged in inappropriate sexual conduct towards me. I was taught at a very young age that what happened behind closed doors stayed there.
This was only reaffirmed on a trip I took to Greece, when I was six years old. My uncle introduced me to porn for the first time and proceeded to masturbate with me in the room.
At the age of 13 I was raped by an individual I thought I could trust; this incident solidified my hatred towards men. I began to live with the mindset, that if sex was what men wanted, I was going to use it for my benefit. I started sleeping with men much older than myself to obtain alcohol, cigarettes and attention. It wasn’t about feelings or intimacy; it was only a transaction.
A week after graduating from high school my father told my mother he had been living a double life. As he left, I could not help but feel that I had failed and that everything that was happening was my fault.
During this time, I met a man who told me he had just the thing to take all the pain away. He offered me a shot of heroin and desperate for an escape, I accepted. At that moment I fell in love with heroin and the euphoric feelings it offered.
Little did I know the wounds I was originally trying to numb would soon grow much deeper. Over the next 12 years I would find myself being sexually exploited day after day to obtain money for heroin. I would tell myself that I enjoyed these encounters not realizing each time I laid down with a man I was not only giving away a piece of myself, but also inviting in another demon.
I was so bound by addiction and heavily involved in sexual exploitation. I began recruiting and exploiting other women in order to obtain money and power. The devil had perverted my mind to the point, I truly believed I was helping these women support and provide for themselves.
I continued to spiral out of control. Having blown all my veins, I began muscling heroin, which resulted in me developing severe infections and breaking various needles off underneath my skin.
With more than 10 trips to the county jail and rehabilitation centers, I felt hopeless as I knew I was going to die a junkie. But God had another plan.
On March 14, 2018 I was arrested for the last time. Having already been convicted of three felonies I believed I was on my way to prison.
The Lord is so relentless in His pursuit. He sat me down with no way out. He began to reveal his unconditional and unfathomable love for me. It was in this place; I surrendered the pen and began to allow God to write my story.
I took a step of Faith and made a deal with God. I said “Lord, the way I am going I am going to die in my addiction, but if you move this mountain in front of me and release me to Restored Hope Ministries. I will serve you for the rest of my life. I desire to do more for YOU than I ever did for the enemy!”
Mark 11:23-24 says Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, go throw yourself into the sea’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.
In July 19, 2018 He moved the mountain and I walked into Restored Hope determined to keep my end of the bargain!
During my time as a resident at RHM! I had the amazing opportunity to walk through intensive counseling and deliverance. Where through the help of my counselor I was able to expose the lies of the enemy and break free from the chains that held me captive for so many years. Through classes and deep biblical study, I have rebuilt my life on a firm foundation. I have discovered an exciting, beautiful and intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father.
Words cannot express how grateful I am that the Lord has placed me under the pastors of Restored Hope Ministries. Pastor Sam has been used as Gods vessel to help me close the door on the pain I experienced from my biological father. Pastor Sherry has been a living example of a woman completely surrendered to her Heavenly Father. Her perseverance and heart not only amaze me but inspire me to be a better person and mother. I cannot thank the two of you enough for the daily obedience and sacrifice it takes to keep this ministry alive, despite the weapons that are formed against you!
In the recent months I was honored to be offered a position as a member of the Restored Hope Ministries Staff. Having known my story this only tells of the goodness of God. It amazes me that He has given me the opportunity to be a part of a ministry that rescues woman from the very industry I once invited them to be a part of. His word is true! He works all things together for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose. RHM has not only saved my life but they have changed the ending to my story. I now declare daily that I will live out my God given assignment down to the last detail!
I now look forward to a great life with my daughter and all my family. I thank God for my job and the opportunity to help exploited women. Lastly, I am so excited to see what God has next for me.